Doing the most profound work in my life

My spiritual journey seems to have begun in my childhood when I committed myself to Christ. It was rekindled in 1974 in my proverbs diary from that time. This search tapered off in the face of householder responsibilities. Now it has been rekindled once again.

Transitioning to a new level of functioning

Now that I have consciously returned to the spiritual path, there is no turning back. A relatively monastic period will continue until I reach a new level that includes spiritual work as an ongoing part of my life.

Recognizing the need for a transition

I have felt the need for serious refocusing for a long time but have not done what was necessary to get it going in a serious way. Some efforts had been undertaken such as Esalen, Creative Movement, etc.

Shaking up my consciousness

Recent life experiences have shaken me to the core of my being. These experiences have brought into question who am I, what am I doing, why am I here, etc.? I have experienced great mental and physical pain.

Experiencing and surviving deep grief

The end of my marriage was the most profound loss that I have experienced. This might have been easier if my wife had died. There wouldn't have been another man and the experience would have had more finality.

Transcending my life box

For some time I have felt locked into a rut. But I had not been able to figure how to get out of the box. My work gives me new perspective on this issue. I am putting this behind me.

Underlining the value of my personal search

I sometimes have nagging feelings about my lack of spiritual progress. The importance of this to me is symbolized by my naming two sailboats Searching and Searching Too. My plan was to name a third Still Searching.

Doing counseling as an ongoing process

Now that I have resumed my personal work, I will continue indefinitely. My work will take any one of several forms such as individual counseling, group work, twelve step programs, workshops at Esalen, Omega, etc.

Identifying and integrating my subpersonalities

I consider my psychosynthesis work to be a lifelong process. I am committed to continue as long as I am economically, physically, and mentally able.